things that make my heart smile

The giggles, smiles, and goofy faces that I get from this kid, and the joy I can see when Mike is trying to teach Logan, or even with they are just being total goobers.. I wouldn't trade it for anything in the world.

bath time for two!

I thought bath time with one baby was fun.. we tried two the other night. Lets just say that pretty much everyone was soaked, and everyone was laughing.

I love these two so much, they always make me laugh.

one of those things

Tonight, before bed, I walked Logan into his room, held him close, and started rocking him in my arms. For some reason the Barney song (you know the one, "I love you, you love me...." yeah, that one) popped into my head, and so I started singing it. He must have liked it, because he laid his head on my shoulder, and started bouncing his foot to the song. It was so comfortable and sweet that I just kept singing the song because I didn't want to stop.

It's moments like those that I feel so lucky. It makes the rest of the day that he acted like a heathen not even matter anymore. 

With all the crazy things going on, like the Boston bombings, and West Texas plant explosion, I hope that everyone really takes the time to be nicer to people, and to enjoy their family. I also hope that people quit taking the little things for-granted, like being able to rock your baby to sleep. You really never do know if it will be the last time, and even though its sad, its the truth. 

I just want my baby boy, fiance, and all my family and friends to know how much each of the means to me, and that I love them dearly. I can't imagine going through something so tragic, and I pray that I never have to. 

first week down!

So after my first week of working full time I can say that I am pooped! Although I didn't do as much this week as I will be in the future, it was still exhausting. I like my job though, and actually enjoy it versus jobs that I've had in the past. My only complaint is that I miss my little boy so much during the day, and I have no way to check on him (his teacher did call me during the day to give me reports, which was nice).

I can say though, that there has already been a definite improvement in him, and I am ecstatic! Usually he is terrified of people that he doesn't know, especially men, but last night at dinner, he loved our waiter! He high-fived and waved to him the entire time we were there, it was great. He's also been way more interested in sitting and reading with me, and all of a sudden he is an expert at puzzles. 

(he was doing puzzles one evening while I made dinner, it was so cute^ xena was was even hanging out)

I have to give a giant thank you to Mike, because without him, this first week would have been hell. He's helped me everyday without any complaints, from Logan waking up every morning before the alarms go off, to helping me cope with leaving him crying at daycare in the morning. He's also bathed him every night, and put him to bed while I lay in bed and pass out almost instantly. Thank you babe, you seriously are amazing!!! 

It feels really good to say that I have a job, and I'm feeling really lucky right now. 

sibling day!

since today is national sibling day, I figured what better way to acknowledge it then to look at some old pictures! I know I don't tell my brothers and sister that I love them often enough, and I should probably get in a better habit of doing it.. but they should know that they can always let me know if they need anything at all, and I'd be there, no questions asked.... ok, maybe a few questions, and possibly some teasing, but that's what big sisters are for!

(chris)

(chris)

(tyler)

One day, I'll get a picture with my sister, but until then, these are a few of my favorites, and yes, they are pictures of pictures (hope that makes sense). 

Gosh, I was a cute kid... hahah just kidding!  

P.S. Logan seriously looks just like my brother Tyler.. I wish I had a better picture to compare, but I hope I am not the only one who see's the resemblance. 

here we go

Tomorrow I start my new job, and Logan starts his new daycare/school. As excited as I am about getting the chance to work and make some spending money, it stinks that I won't see my baby boy all day, every day like I am used to. Even though I was in school a few semesters, it isn't the same, because it won't just be a few hours every other day, and he won't be with people that I know personally. This is a whole new experience! I am going to miss him so much! 

I have to keep reminding myself that this will be good for both of us, and that he is going to be in good hands. He'll get the chance to learn all kinds of cool things, and make some friends. Not to mention that the school we picked for him seems pretty awesome. I just really hope that he enjoys himself once he gets over me not being with him.

So when it set in that I was going to be away from him 40+ hours a week, I started looking through all the pictures I have of him, and it makes me so happy that I did have the chance to be there for all of his firsts, and boy did we have some good times. 

(he was so tiny, it blows my mind!)

I can't even count how many hours we spent laying in bed, acting like goobers. Some of my favorite memories with him!

I know we will have more good times, and I know that this really will benefit us all. So here's to a new chapter! Wish us luck haha!

then and now

we made our way out to the bluebonnet patch near our house the other day, and man, it was packed! There were also a ton of bees everywhere, which I do not remember dealing with last year.. I hate bees! We managed to run around through the bluebonnets and not get stung, so I guess it really wasn't that bad. I love this time of year (minus the bugs) because the weather is awesome, and I don't mind running around outside with Logan. Daddy joined in too, so that was nice! 

last year when we visited the bluebonnet patch, Logan was only 4 months old, and couldn't even sit up yet. Now, he almost a year and a half, and I can't even name everything he can do! 

I hope that we all get to go to the bluebonnets every year, it really is pretty to see in person.